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[00:00:00] to The Bar is in Hell. My name is Daniele Gates. I am an entrepreneur, an educator, a retreat leader, a podcaster, a reality television personality, and I have. Done a few different podcasts. I did two. They were both had the same name, If I Remember correctly. They're produced by Ryan Brook, who is super talented, but we just have a very complicated relationship, so we can't really work together.
Or be friends for that matter. And so without a producer, I kind of let the podcasting thing go because I just don't have the attention span, the technical knowledge, the patience, any of the things that are required to put together anything that is media related. And so I kind of let the idea go that I needed a podcast simply because I didn't have the energy or the space or.
Any of the things [00:01:00] that I needed in order to put one together. However, I have been having a lot of people lately tell me that I need to have a podcast. I don't really curate Instagram or Facebook or TikTok content the way I used to. I used to have a PR team that, did all of my posts and my videos for me, and I would write the captions, but, they made everything pretty, but it never really felt authentic.
So I started doing lives like in between those on my feed so that people got to see the authentic version of me. I also felt like, as the show was airing. You kind of saw one side of me. Not to say that what you saw wasn't me, but I felt like it was one particular element of my character.
And I felt like when I went live on social media that you got to see, all of the parts of me. Because one of the things that's always been really important to me and is still really important to me is operating with integrity, being honest, and [00:02:00] if you know anything about Scorpios. I'm a Scorpio.
You know, that we really rely on and value truth. And even though truth is relative and everybody has a different truth and there's no such thing as a true story, we do, you know, we value our perspective and we have particular experiences that, are transformational. And we also really value being honest.
And we want people in our lives who are honest. We really want to be honest. And so, me going live on social media helps keep me honest because if ever I say anything, you know, I say that something's true. And then someone else can always say, no, that's not true. Here are the seats, here are the screenshots.
Here's the photo, here's the video. And so that's really never happened that I remember. You know, I say all that to say I want to make sure that people always have the truest version of me. I also recognize that I have a [00:03:00] son and I have nephews that are influenced by other members of my family. I know that there's going to be a time where people who don't really interact with me regularly because of their parents are gonna wonder about me.
And I want there to be somewhere that lives, stories that are important to my lineage and a way for people to understand why I make the choices that I make. And I just also feel like telling stories is really healing. I spent a lot of my life not telling the truth, keeping a lot of secrets, keeping a lot of the things that I was experiencing to myself for a couple of different reasons.
One reason was because I was embarrassed or ashamed. Another reason is, a lot of times when I would tell a story or something that I experienced, people wouldn't believe me. I'm not sure why. I don't know if it's because I share my life very matter of factly, and I don't seem to have a like insane emotional [00:04:00] response when I tell stories, you know?
And that's what people expect. Like how could you possibly have experienced that and still like, come to school every day or come to work every day? Like you're making that up for attention. And so I got a lot of that and I stopped telling stories and, and talking about my life with people who weren't physically there to experience it.
I'm very blessed that a lot of. Really hard things that I've experienced in my life. I've had a lot other peop other people be present for it and so, there's never a question about what my experiences are. My friends, my chosen family, a lot of colleagues have been very supportive through some hard things that I've experienced, ~but.~
~Um, ~I just for the most part have kept a lot of the hardest things about my life, if you can believe that to myself. Now, I know that everybody knows my story with Johann, which is obviously very hard. My journey with him is not easy. It's still not easy. It wasn't easy from the beginning, but I think the question that I get most often is.
Why do you accept [00:05:00] not even the bare ~minimum?~ Like, why would you waste your time with someone like this? Like he clearly doesn't meet you in any way, shape or form. What is it about him? And so that's a question that I've also explored.
It's not like I think that he's the, you know, this amazing perfect husband, prince Charming, who's came and swept me off my feet and you know, now I'm. I am just smitten with him. It's not that at all, and I think that most people know that and understand that. But you know, the feedback I get a lot is that I have no self-worth or I don't have any self-respect, or I'm naive or blind to it, or nobody gives a fuck about me.
And like I hear some really awful, awful things and I just, I want people to know that. That's not it. I'm actually a really self-aware person. I suffer with a lot of internal struggles. I don't like to say mental health struggles 'cause I really believe that they're spiritual, but you know, I struggle a lot, but.[00:06:00]
I also have a lot of tools. I've spent a lot of time working on myself. I spent a lot of time in isolation studying spiritual texts, reading, watching lectures, listening to podcasts, working on different classes with different mentors. I don't really talk about that stuff as much just because it would be so ~consuming~ to talk about it and do it, but all of the work that I do is very much nurtured and supported by the learning that I do.
And the teachers that I have and the friends that I have around me and colleagues. So, what I really wanted to talk about today is, first of all, we are beginning of Full Moon Aries. I actually have notes, so you'll hear my, you're gonna hear the dryer in the background. You're gonna hear papers moving.
I'm sure gizmo's gonna be pissed in a moment, but again, we're moving with integrity and authenticity. So yeah, we have a full moon in Aries, a super moon. My moon is in Aries. Today is also the one year anniversary of my grandmother's death. [00:07:00] October 7th is my father's birthday. He's currently in a nursing home.
We are moving towards Scorpio season. And so the Full Moon Aries is telling us to be brave to act with courage, to take action before you're ready. And so that's why this is the first episode of the Bars in Hell. This week is going to be a very powerful spiritual week for me.
I'll be taking today, off the internet for the most part, with the exception of a couple of meetings that I have. But, today is the day that I'm gonna be doing a lot of work. And this is an example of me being brave and courageous and starting before I'm ready to figure out how to post this on the Kajabi platform and release it.
~Um, and so that's how I'm applying this energy today. I've also posted in the Olivia and the collective, um, some ways to work with this full moon areas based on your rising sign. Um, so if you go into the astrology section of the collective, you'll find that. Um, if you're not a member of the collective, um, there'll be some notes that will tell you how to join the collective.~
~Um, ~so what I really wanna talk about today is what I learned from my grandmother, because I want to honor the one year, this one year that I've had without her, there were very many years that I had without her, but this one year has been a year of transformation. I'm gonna get emotional talking about [00:08:00] this, but ~you know, ~I hope that.
My grandmother realizes how grateful I am that she called me in January of 2023 to help her. It, was during a very difficult time in my life, but I, had the opportunity to support her through the last years of her life. I had the opportunity to rebuild her home and have her live, in a way that she had never lived before.
We really celebrated a lot. She taught me a lot. About myself, about my father, about my history, my lineage, her family, my grandfather's family. My grandfather was actually her third husband, so he was not a biological grandfather, but I learned a lot about all of her marriages, him, his kids.
And so the time that I got suspend with her between January of 2023 and when she passed October 6th, 2024, I'm just, I'm very grateful for that time [00:09:00] because. I learned a lot and I'm gonna talk about that. So it's really interesting that I actually ended up caring for my grandmother because, I, I hadn't seen her since 2008, I think.
Yeah, 2008 I drove down to Florida with my brother. I think it was my first year teaching in New York City, and my grandmother had a heart attack in Florida. She was living in Florida. And my brother and I. Had to drive down 'cause my brother doesn't fly to see her. He drove the entire time. He wouldn't let me drive because he doesn't trust me driving.
I was just there for moral support, I guess. And we had to stay with my father, who I think was also living there at the time. A lot of my memories are really foggy. Um, I'm still working through a lot of stuff from. Yeah, every single era of my life, every decade, every year, every moment. Um, I'm constantly working through things with my family because my experiences have been 46 years of [00:10:00] really challenging stuff, so I'm always trying to piece things together.
But if I remember correctly, to quote my last podcast, she had a heart attack. We stayed with my father. He was living there. I didn't really enjoy that experience of staying with my father. He was on a lot of pills. My father was an addict his entire life. I remember we watched The Hurt Locker and like, I couldn't even watch past the beginning of the movie because he played it so loud.
'cause like the bombs were really exciting for him. And it was just like very weird for me. And I just remember being like, why the fuck am I here? But I was grateful to get to see my grandmother and that was the last time I had seen her until, 2023. The last time I had seen my father was, my brother's wedding.
In 2015, I had gone there with my boyfriend who was Dominican. He was about 15 years older than me, and my father spent the [00:11:00] entire time belittling me, yelling at me, calling me names. He hated my guts because, we had a challenging relationship. All of my life. The last terrible thing that had happened between him and I was when I first started teaching in New York City, ~maybe.~
~I don't know. Maybe it was right after my grandmother had passed. Yeah, there was a, ~now I remember my brother, my son was visiting his father in Hawaii. He was flying as an unaccompanied minor, so he had a flight attendant who traveled with him. He was coming back from Hawaii. He had a layover in LA and there was a hurricane in New York and a blackout.
And so my son ended up getting trapped in la. He had to stay there in the airport with a flight attendant for like 12 hours, and the only flight he can get was a flight to Florida. We were already going to Disney after that. My brother was living in Florida at the time, so my brother had to drive. Somewhere, I don't remember. Maybe to Tampa or something from, from Port St. Lucie to [00:12:00] meet my son and I flew down and met him and we went to Disney. And during this time, I did not go and visit my grandparents in Port St. Lucie. I just went to Disney World in Orlando. Even though my grandparents lived an hour and a half away, I didn't go and see them.
And I don't remember if my grandmother was as sick at the time. She might have just had a, another heart attack. My grandmother had a few heart attacks, but my father was very angry that I did not visit my grandmother. And during the blackout in New York, I was out with my friend Shelly, and her husband
I think it was Miller's a Ale house because there was no power anywhere. I couldn't charge my phone, didn't have any connect connection to anyone. And when I finally was able to charge my phone and I woke up, at Shelly's house the next morning after the power came back on, my phone was blowing up and one of the messages was from my boss.
And she said, Danielle, I [00:13:00] hope that everything's okay. Please let me know if you need anything. I'm here to talk. And it was just a million messages and I was like, what the fuck is happening? And I realized that my father had gone on an insane tirade on my Facebook page and called me all of these terrible names.
Some of them were race driven, some of them were like. Calling me a whore. Like it was just a lot that I was a terrible person, just like a crazy, crazy rant. And I immediately deleted it and I wrote to him on Facebook, which is a ridiculous way to communicate with your father, but that was where the error occurred.
So that was what I chose to do. I wrote to him on Facebook, I said, your addiction has consumed you. You never grow up. You hate me for no reason. I have to write you off.
Like, I can't have you in my life anymore. My father is currently in a nursing [00:14:00] home, so he doesn't have the ability to tell his side of some of these stories, which is why I haven't really talked about him publicly, because I do feel a lot of guilt around that.
You don't hear me talk about my family. I don't talk about my son. I don't talk about my mom. You've never seen my family on any. 90 day fiance shows. And I don't talk about them because if I tell the truth about my experiences with my family, it feels like I'm talking shit. And I know that they don't want their truth being shared publicly.
However, I also think that a lot of. The suffering that I experience is the result of not telling the truth. And when I say suffering, I mean like emotional, physical, ~you know, ~things I carry and just weight that I carry that I have to constantly process.
People think they know everything about me because they see me on television or because I'm on Instagram all the time. But you see what I tell you, there's so much of my life you don't see. My relationship with my father [00:15:00] was very, very complicated.
There were really great parts of our relationship when I was younger, but there were also really violent parts and really toxic and abusive parts. Overall when I think about my relationship with my father, it makes me very sad. If he was not an addict. I think I would've had a very different man, 'cause he was very intelligent and I think he had a very good heart.
He loved his mother very much, but. When I was called to take care of my grandmother in January of 2023, I was called because, my grandmother was looking for my brother. I, you know, I hadn't maintained a relationship with my father, and because of that, I didn't maintain a relationship with my grandparents because I never wanted to call them and him be there.
And, I just felt like I knew who they were and whenever, like there was an estranged family member, that person, everybody would just sit at the kitchen table and talk shit about them. And so I just always felt like that was what they were doing with me and I just didn't even want to connect to that [00:16:00] energy or feel, feel rejected or shitty in that way.
Or I didn't want people to be nice to me on the phone and then talk shit about me when I wasn't on the phone. Whether or not that was the case and what life looked like, I don't know. But in talking with my stepmother and just in the conversations that I've had with my grandmother before she passed, I have a feeling that keeping myself separated was the right decision.
Based on what I was experiencing in my life, there was only so much that I could manage, to be honest. When I got the call in January of 2023 from my grandmother, her phone ~number~ had never changed, so I recognized immediately. Very excited to hear from her. I actually had spoken to her on the phone once during COVID when I was doing some ancestral research.
And I wanted to learn about her side of the family. It was right before my first Misa and I needed to do a prayer for my ancestors, and I wanted to do both sides of my family. So I had spoken to her briefly, but this was the first time that she had reached out to me for help for anything. My grandfather had passed that [00:17:00] October.
No one had told me. I found out on Facebook and I was really upset about that, it was a complicated time. So I was surprised when I saw her ~number,~ when she called, I was having breakfast with Johan.
We were living in Dominican Republic by hie. We were going through our own shit. But my grandmother called and said, you know, I need to speak to your brother. Your father's having a hard time. He had a stroke. He's acting funny and I need your brother's help. And I said, is there anything that I can do?
And she said, I think that your brother needs to talk to your father, man to man. So I said, okay, I will try. I'll just let you know that I don't really talk to Joe, but you know, I will make sure that he gets the message and he calls. And so I hung up with her and I immediately messaged either my mom or my brother, I can't remember who I messaged first, but I said, Hey, I just got a call from grandma.
She said that. Peter's in bad shape and that Joe needs to call. My brother called, my mother had said something, I don't know if it was on this [00:18:00] call or another one where she was like, your brother talks to your father every week.
He's fine. You're being dramatic. Stay out of it. You know, that kind of thing. So I stayed out of it because. The last thing I wanted at that stage in my life was more problems with my family because honestly, what I was dealing with with my husband was hard enough to put this in context. January of 2023 was a month after December of 2022, which is when we filmed the famous Santa Claus scene where.
Johann tried to take Gizmo. It was a week after we did Ayahuasca together. So like I was in a really insane place mentally, physically, spiritually. So I really could not manage at this point in my life, reintroducing all of the ~trauma~ of the paternal side of my family. So I was like, okay.
I'm not gonna get involved. About three weeks later, end of January, beginning of February, my grandmother called again and said that my father had a heart attack. He was in the hospital, she was all alone. She didn't know what to do. She was very scared. My brother wouldn't help her, and so I said, okay, [00:19:00] I'm gonna get on the plane.
And so I, to put this in context, I was, we were in the middle of filming. I did not tell anybody at the network that I was having this experience. I also was hosting retreat beginning February 16th, and this was the 1st of February. So, I really didn't have time. Right before a retreat, it's a very busy time, so I really didn't have time to fly to Florida and figure out what the hell I was doing with my father and my grandmother.
But I didn't have a choice because an 88-year-old woman called me for help and no one was helping her, and I could not have. Her and my father die in a house together and me feel like I had that on my shoulders. I know that there are a million people in the world who will say it wasn't my problem.
I don't have to fix everyone. It's not my job. But, I'm sure that, none of those people have had their 88-year-old grandmother call them and beg for help. I also knew how dangerous my father could be, [00:20:00] and I was afraid for my grandmother's life, I didn't want her to suffer. I felt like, what I was dealing with, with my husband at that time was almost like mirroring the damage that my father caused in his relationships.
And so I didn't want, I, I just felt like I was having this experience for a reason. There were a lot of reasons why I decided to buy a flight and go and see my grandmother. I also, before I left, called my cousin and said, you know, what do I do? She's really the only sane person in my family right now, and I called her and I said, what do I do?
Do I fly to New York and go to Joe and ask him? To go and deal with this or do I fly to Florida and just see what's there for myself? She said, you're gonna fly to New York and you're never gonna get what you want from your brother. So I would rather see you fly to Florida and at least see for yourself what's happening there.
And then you know that you did anything you could. And so that's what I did. And I flew to Florida [00:21:00] and I got to my grandmother's house and it was a disaster. My father had been living there. There were cigarette burns everywhere. The whole house smelled like smoke. The house was a mess. She couldn't, you know, she was trying to clean, but she couldn't really see, she wasn't physically capable of cleaning a house.
There was, you know, she did her best to organize and clean, but it was just, the house itself was in pretty bad shape. There was nowhere for me to sleep, and my father was in the hospital, and so I had to immediately call the hospital my father, I guess, found out that I was at the house.
So he checked himself out of the hospital. Came home with stickers still on his chest. He didn't have a shirt on, he didn't have shoes on, and he just came in the house and he saw me and he started crying and I was just like, I am here to help. You know, I don't really know what's going on.
Grandma called me and told me that Grandpa [00:22:00] died and you guys needed some help, so I'm just here to help. I tried to be as non-confrontational as possible. I tried to build as much trust as possible because at the end of the day, I didn't have time to fight with anybody. All I wanted to do was make sure that everybody was good so that I can go back and do what I needed to do.
I knew that this was not my problem to solve. It was not my business. I was the last person who should have been there to do this. And I realized very quickly in talking to both of them for an hour or so, that they were both cognitively impaired.
They were both experiencing dementia. They both had severe memory loss. They both couldn't find words for things. My grandmother is diabetic. My father has a whole host of conditions. He clearly had a stroke, so he's dealing with some neurological stuff. He's diabetic, he has a heart disease. He had pancreatic cancer.
I believe he is also an addict. He's addicted to a lot of [00:23:00] pills. He's an alcoholic. I don't know what else he was doing at the time, but he was kind of a disaster. The first thing, I'd said was, what are the problems? What is it that needs to happen? And how can I create some structure here and help you get some structure in the house so that you guys feel like you have what you need?
And my father said We need homeowner's insurance. And I said, okay. I had never owned a home, so I had never had to get homeowner's insurance. I had no idea how to get homeowner's insurance. I didn't really know where to start. And I said, well, okay, do you have any insurance policies where, where's the paperwork?
And my father was very nervous. He did not want me looking at any paperwork. He did not want me going through anything. He did not want me seeing anything. He was very, very nervous and I was like. Listen, I don't have a lot of time. I am just here to help. And so if you feel like you guys are fine without me, then I'm not gonna force you to allow me to help you.
But [00:24:00] grandma called me for a reason and I wanna make sure that everybody has what they need and that she feels safe because I wanna feel like, you know. You're using me as a resource because I'm here as a resource. You know, I flew here, you know, let me do what I can do. And so he said, okay, call citizens.
So I called citizens, I gave them my address. They said, has your mortgage been paid? And I said, I don't know. I asked my grandmother where the mortgage was. She said she didn't know. She had never paid the mortgage. I asked my father if he knew where the mortgage was.
He said, bank of New York. No, bank of New York doesn't exist anymore. So I got in the car with my father and my grandmother. I had rented ~A-B-M-W-A~ convertible BMW. It was little, I had flown into Miami and I just knew that this was gonna be a really ~traumatizing~ fucking experience. So I rented the fanciest car I could possibly find, and I just drove, to Port St.
Lucie to my grandmother's house. Getting my grandmother and my father in this car was quite comical when we tried to [00:25:00] get out of the car at the first bank. I don't remember what the first bank was. My father actually had some kind of spasm, fell out of the car onto the floor and couldn't get up.
So I had to like, wait a moment until he got some kind of. Got his bearings and help him up. And my grandmother actually was trying to help him up too, even though she's very fragile. And this is what it was like we, the three of us, like a clown show. Were driving to banks and walking inside and saying, hi, is our mortgage here?
Hi, is our mortgage here? That's what it was like. And we ended up at Bank of America and found the mortgage and so. Realized the mortgage hadn't been paid in months, didn't know where the bank accounts were, you know, I had to basically go through all of the papers in the house, all of the mail in the house.
These people had kept mail every single day of their lives for all of the time that they had lived there since 1991. And it was quite an adventure. I also had to figure out how my grandmother could [00:26:00] properly. Get my grandfather's pension, how she can transfer the social security into his name. And so I spent three days going through all this paperwork, calling people, setting up accounts online, writing everything down, putting it on the fridge, getting a cleaning lady.
In three days I solved a plethora of problems and I said I have to go back to Dominican Republic. I have a retreat, that I'm hosting, but I'll be back. And I said everything on auto pay so there wouldn't be any problems. And all of a sudden in April, I got another call from my grandmother, after checking on her weekly.
And there were a lot of things that happened in between, but she said, your father's acting funny again. Something's happening with the money. I don't think he's being right. I need you to come here and help. And so, that was kind of like the beginning of the end for my father. And it was the beginning of me realizing that I was going to have a much larger role in caring for her than [00:27:00] I thought, than I wanted.
I had called my brother and my mother multiple times for help. They both told me that I was being dramatic. My father was fine. There was nothing wrong. I am sure in future podcast episodes I'll talk about all the things that I experienced with my father, both before and after this. But for the purposes of this, I really just wanna honor the spirit of my grandmother and for people to understand the ~circumstances~ that I was under when I want to have to take care of her.
Because I think it's important that people know that forgiveness is possible, that anybody can change. And my grandmother, my father, they were very racist people. It was part of the ~reason~ why they didn't really care to have me in their life and in me having to take care of my grandmother. Had to face a lot of that and accept a lot of that, and also [00:28:00] try and model for her what love looked like when you had love for all people.
I have recordings of her saying insane shit, like, you can't even food shop for me because you only know how to shop for Spanish people. And her waking up on Christmas morning and coming in and saying, you're not gonna believe what the blacks did. I mean, I had so many insane experiences with her, but.
I also had some really beautiful experiences and at the end of her life I had my sister-in-law who was Dominican, taking care of her. And when I tell you that, that experience changed my grandmother and she loved Mari so much and appreciated her, and at the. End of her life. The night before she died, we were taking passport photos because she was gonna take her first overseas trip for her 90th birthday to Dominican Republic.
[00:29:00] That is how much healthier she was. That is, how excited. She was, I think in some ways she knew her end was near because she had said to me, one day while we were sitting on the balcony after I remodeled the house, I'm so sad I didn't do this sooner. I'm so sad. I really didn't experience this.
And I'm like, but you still get to experience this. You're gonna experience this for the rest of your life. You have so much time to experience it. And I think she knew that she didn't have much time. But I am very grateful that I had the time with her that I did. I am grateful that, I got to spend so much time learning about her and my family.
But the greatest thing that I learned from her was forgiveness. Forgiveness for her, for my father, for myself. That sometimes relationships are really, really hard, but that doesn't mean that you give up on them. It means that you work through them. [00:30:00] Sometimes God will place ~circumstances~ in our lives that seem impossible, like absolutely impossible.
Like why on Earth would you place this ~circumstance~ in my life? I do not understand this in this moment, but it's faith that says to us, whatever it is, I know I'm here for a reason and I'm going to work through it. God carried me through that entire experience with my grandmother taking care of her.
God carried me through the grief when she passed. God blessed me with my sister-in-law to be there for me at the end of my grandmother's life because that meant she was there for me when she passed and was there for me when I had to pack up her room and was there for me when I had to have her cremated.
My stepmother, also was very, very present for me during that process. Very grateful for her also, but. You know, on this anniversary of my grandmother's death on this Full Moon in Aries, on this first day of the Bars in Hell podcast, I want us to think about the ways that we can be brave. [00:31:00] My grandmother was going to register to vote.
For the first time in her entire life, and it was the first time that she was not going to vote Republican. She was going to vote for the first woman presidential candidate, Kamala Harris, who was a black woman. Now, my grandmother was a racist woman. My father was a very racist man who was raised by my grandmother.
Yeah, there will be spaces where I can speak to that, but it's the reason why social justice is so important to me because I know how some white people think and I know how dangerous they are. And I, as I see the rise of fascism and the acceptance of bigotry in a way that I've never seen it accepted in my lifetime, I have never seen such open hate in the 46 years I've been alive.
I don't know if it's social media. I haven't been aware, but I don't think it's ever been as in my face. And so I want to use the energy of my [00:32:00] grandmother. I know that she is here with me. I am channeling this message through her, with her as my guide. And I know that she would want me to tell you that modeling good behavior.
Sometimes is enough to help people transform, taking action and never giving up on social justice, not giving up on your family when they say racist shit, not giving up on your family when they do things that hurt you. Forgiving people that is brave, that is courageous. And so in my family, the bar is in hell, you know?
The bar for acceptable behavior is really like abysmal, and I had to really revisit that in the time that I got to take care of my grandmother. But I also got to change that because when she said to me, why do you speak to me like one of your students, why got to say to her? Because I learned how to [00:33:00] speak respectfully when I learned how to become a teacher.
You think that the way that I'm speaking to you is condescending because I'm speaking to you kindly and I'm speaking to you slowly and I'm not yelling at you, and you think that the only way to speak to someone is to scream at them and to call them names and to belittle them, and she didn't wanna hear that, but she heard it because our communication very much shifted from that point.
And she was almost 90. She died in October, October 6th, and her birthday was in December. So, right before her 90th birthday and her perspective was able to change. People can change. And so if you continue to model. Right action. If you continue to be brave, if you organize to help the people in your community who are suffering under fascism, you, can be on the right side of history.
Right now, [00:34:00] this full moon in Aries is asking for Warriors and asking for us to channel everything in us that we have. To move towards love and sometimes moving towards love means fighting. Fighting for what is just fighting for what is fair. Fighting for the people in your neighborhood, in your community, in your family, at your job, in your school, wherever you are, who, need your support.
And so whatever that looks like, whether it's sharing a post on Instagram or it's making a phone call to an elected representative, or it's bringing someone food who you know, lost a family member, you know, who's being deported or whatever it is. However you feel like you can support someone who's suffering right now, be brave.
I just ask you to be brave. [00:35:00] Because that is what the world is calling for. That is what my grandmother would want. That is what she did, and that is how I want to honor this full Moon Aries and her memory. So thank you for listening. I have no idea where this is going. This might be the first and only episode.
I may do this weekly, who knows? But I wanted to make sure that I got this all out of me and that I offered you, some insight into, just where I come from and why I move the way I do and why I think that it's so important, that we pay attention and recognize that the ~circumstances~ in our lives are not random.
And that God places challenges in our lives for a reason. God places people in our lives for a reason. And so instead of ~assuming~ like you have bad luck or shitty things keep happening to you, or anything in your life is random, start realizing that not only are things not random, but God is co-creating with you.
So all of your actions, all of your thoughts, [00:36:00] all of your feelings, all of your relationships, everything that you do in the world, the work you do, all of it, it's all divine. And so how are you using that divinity to create more love in the world and to move in a more progressive and positive direction?
That is all. 40 minutes is probably 20 minutes too long, but, ~um. That's how long it is today. ~We'll see ~what~ happens later. Love you guys. Use your energy wisely.
